It's been nearly a week that he hasn't called me. I miss him incredibly. Sometimes we upset each other but most of the time it's only because when love is that deep, you forget yourself and talk to the other as though you were one. I know what it sounds like - a silly love story with a deluded girl. Maybe that is what this is and one day I will see it as such. In the mean time, I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I've been waiting for things to resolve for such a long time, hoping, praying that perhaps there will be a time in the future when we can be together. 10years of both our lives we've invested in this relationship. That’s a third of my life. To let go now would destroy me.

A part of my soul feels like it's constantly going against the grain, crashing against the waves and being broken into a thousand pieces. I long for the day when I can sleep in peace, without that aching pain in my chest.

© Amy Serafina