I stood at the bus stop this afternoon, waiting patiently for the bus. It was freezing cold - a chill in the air that reached my bones. I stood there alone, shaking and shivering. I rubbed my hands together, noticing a guy coming closer as I did so. The guy, creepy looking and smug, commented ‘I could warm you up if you want’. I put on my you-must-be-joking face and replied ‘I’m ok thanks’.

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"Surround yourself with the dreamers and the doers, the believers and the thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see the greatness within you, even when you don’t see it yourself.” Edmund Lee

Love

Love flourishes in the unlikeliest places. When you least expect to find it, it's there, waiting to be unwrapped. It feels magical and for a moment life transforms itself. Your zest for happiness and adventure suddenly appear. You want to sing from the rooftops, fly with the birds and swing through the trees. Everything becomes possible. Life is good again.



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I’m here now,
At the end of the road.
My destiny within reach,
The end is close.

I can almost see it,
Smell it,
Touch it.
But I still can’t quite understand it.

All the plans,
All the sacrifices,
All the hard work.

In the end,
What was mine
Never did escape me.

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If Light shall be given,
It is.
If sadness is to roam free,
It does.
If this is how we were meant to be,
We are.

Things are as they should be,
We are as we are.
Life is what it is.

A blessing in disguise,
A mercy beyond recognise,
You are to me,
What I could never have imagined to be.

When I fall,
When I cry,
When I’m in despair.

When I lose hope,
When I sacrifice,
When I’m in anger.

I turn around,
And there you are.

Your smile,
Your words,
Your thoughts,
Strengthening me with every breath.

Truly, God created you for me.

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My heart

My heart is a melting pot of emotions,

Being cooked and stirred as I walk along.

I can’t find peace,

I can’t find sense.

I’ve hit rock bottom

And it’s not a dream.

There is a gaping hole,

It’s fleshy and bruised.

Bitten on the sides

And aching through.

My heart is a melting pot of emotions,

Being cooked and stirred as I walk along.

I can’t find reason,

I can’t find rhyme.

I’ve reached the end

And there’s nowhere to hide.

Bittersweet memories,

Seems so surreal.

The head finds it shocking,

The heart’s betrayal.

My heart is a melting pot of emotions,

Being cooked and stirred as I walk along.

I can’t find logic,

I can’t find wisdom.

I’ve sunk so low,

And there’s nowhere to go.

© Amy Serafina

It's been nearly a week that he hasn't called me. I miss him incredibly. Sometimes we upset each other but most of the time it's only because when love is that deep, you forget yourself and talk to the other as though you were one. I know what it sounds like - a silly love story with a deluded girl. Maybe that is what this is and one day I will see it as such. In the mean time, I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I've been waiting for things to resolve for such a long time, hoping, praying that perhaps there will be a time in the future when we can be together. 10years of both our lives we've invested in this relationship. That’s a third of my life. To let go now would destroy me.

A part of my soul feels like it's constantly going against the grain, crashing against the waves and being broken into a thousand pieces. I long for the day when I can sleep in peace, without that aching pain in my chest.

© Amy Serafina